Tuesday, August 13, 2013


Started my period today. A bit sad. I wouldn't have known if we hadn't been trying.

I'm not sure that this actually counts as a pregnancy. I guess so, but it wasn't real for me yet, so it's a strange state of mind I'm in. Sad, but a bit hardened. I was sort of worried about this, so the fact that it happened isn't exactly unexpected, just unwanted. I think it's a little bit of detachment. It's not real until we hit 4 months. Then it can be real. Otherwise, I don't think my heart can continue to take it.

I only have a couple of more tries before I'm done. I've lost 2. I can't lose too many more.

1 comment:

ste said...

Thinking of you and hoping you find some peace in these days.