Thursday, February 23, 2012

Yet Another Catastrophe Averted

So, 2 weeks ago I had a mammogram. Oh boy, if you've never had that done you don't know what you're missing. And I have Dense breast tissue, so they take more than the normal number of pictures.

I was notified last week that they saw something, and that I needed to come back and have more scans and an ultrasound of my left boob. Now, since mom had breast cancer twice, and g-ma once, it did sort of make my stomach drop for a day or so. But I made the appointment and tried to put it out of my mind. After all, I'm still really young for the type of breast cancers that mom and gma had.

Yesterday I went in, the lady took like, 6 or 7 films. She'd arrange, squash, click the 'take picture' button, repeat as needed. She told me to go wait in the waiting room, they would look at the pictures and see if I needed the ultrasound. Waiting rooms suck, especially when you're waiting for results that were important enough to be read Right Now.

She stuck her head out and told me that everything was ok, the films looked fine, I could get dressed and go. I'm sure I was eloquent and said something like, 'Really? That's it? No Ultrasound!?'. She smiled and sent me on my way. *whew* another landmine averted.

But I know that there will be a time when I step right on that landmine. And it will blow my world apart. I read the Fight-Breast-Cancer page and I read the stories and all I think is how much I don't want to EVER have the need to post there.

On that same topic, I went to see my ob/gyn. She did some computer risk programs to determine my risk for developing breast cancer. [I refuse to take the BRCA genetic test. I know it sounds paranoid, but I don't trust the insurance company to not use it against me at some point in the future. Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean that they aren't watching] Even without the genetic testing, I'm at 25% chance for breast cancer. I'm not quite sure how that number works, like if I live 4 lives, then i'll only get breast cancer in 1 of them/ Or is it that in a random group of 4 people I'll be the one to get breast cancer? Or is it closer, like in a group of 4 women from my mother's family line, then I'll be the one to get it? Also, this doesn't consider the chances of getting any other kind of cancer, this one was just breast.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Another one Bites the Dust!

Holy crap, I didn't know it had been that long!

So, last week, on Valentines Day, I was rear-ended on the freeway on my way to work (I had 3 meetings that day!!) and totaled my car. The other guy is at fault, admitted to the police it was his fault. His insurance is give me a hard time, dragging their feet on paying me out.

Turns out, my husband is not a patient car shopper. We went looking on Saturday, and came home with a new car. I had no intention of buying a car. I was looking at 3 or 4 kinds, and I wanted to test drive and see how I felt about it. We started at Carmax. Tried some cars, but they were either too new (expensive), too old, or too many miles. Or just too dirty, one was so stained! And one of the cars had definitely been a smokers car.

So went to a dealership, I saw the Honda Element, which hadn't been on my list of cars to look at but I did like, and my husband got slightly railroaded into buying the car. It was a good deal, it was a 2005 with the sticker price at 14,000, we got it for 11,225, and I got us a 3% interest rate.

Plus the settlement we'll get off of the Subaru, we should get it paid off in 18 months. If I really don't like it, we can trade it in then.

And I wasn't hurt in the accident, so that was a blessing. He took out my back end and right rear quarter panel, but he bent the frame so I don't think they can salvage it.

Technically, this is the 5th car I've totaled, but I've really only totaled 4, one of them was repaired rather than totaled out. I'm death on cars. I hope this new one is as sturdy ad my 2 Subaru's. They just didn't have an affordable one in the area.

I sure hope I like this car.

Every time I get a new car, I always say that the next car will be really cool, with all of the electronic features, and a sun roof, I've always wanted a sunroof. I've said that 4 times now. Still don't have that. Oh well, Next Time I'm Totally Getting A Really Cool Car!!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


I figured out why I was in such a bad mood. It was partly the exercise thing.  But I've come to the realization that I'm not ready to start trying to get pregnant yet.

Part of that realization came when I had to go to my yearly ob/gyn fun.

It made me very sad, I'm not sure if I can continue to use this doctor. She's very nice, and a good doctor, but I may have to change. 

This evening MSJ's sister called to tell us she is pregnant. 

I'm not sure what to think. I'm genuinely happy for her, I think they've been trying for awhile.

I'm not sure what to do with this information.