Another of my friends is pregnant. This is their 3rd child. She said, and I quote, "I wanted to have one more before we got too old." She is 28.
I told her to bite me. I said, "Bite. Me."
Her husband asked what I said. I repeated it. He said, yeah, that's what I thought you said.
(sigh) I'm at a loss. There is nothing I can do to fix this. There is nothing I can do to change it, or to influence it. Nothing.
So I hug them and tell them I'm happy. And I am. I want nothing more than for my friends to have happy healthy children who live to a ripe old age. I want to watch my friends' kids grow up and go to school and have boyfriends and go to college and live life.
But sometimes, sometimes.
Dear God, WTH??? Amen
ps. I feel like I've prayed this several times already this year. Do you think that's good, or bad?